almost 2 yrs later, i'm writing in here again, but as the last post. We will not be tgt anymore; she has a new bf, and she dislikes me, and forgotten me.
it's has been long, since i last write in a blog. i dun haf this habit, thou edwiana used to keep pestering me to restart my blog. i nv, until now.
i suddenly have alot of things to say. we used to quarrel now and then, but i nv had as much things as this time to say. So much that i dunno where to start.
maybe it's just heartbreaking to see the person who i still love, holding, hugging, kissing another guy...
thruout these years, she has nv believed in my love.
i nv wanted to quarrel wif her.
all i wan is also, a simple and carefree love. just being wif someone u love and able to see her, no matter how short, is very happy for me.
Of all the nasty times, when i'm sick, when sch stresses me, when biz or work seems untoleratable, i can bear it alone.
when my mother passed away, i cant.
when i saw how my sis's bf came down everyday to accompany and support her thru our possibly the most difficult time in our lives, i cant help thinking where is the person i love and care for so much...
and does she noe that i miss her so much during tat period of time, and yet i cant see her cos of what happened to my mother?
i met her, finally after my mother's stuff settled. she shouted at me when i talked about my mother. I was heartbroken, 2nd time.
I nv blame her, cos this is her, this is edwiana.
if i were a fren, or if i dun see her as someone i care so much, i wouldnt feel tat way.
maybe in the past, i will laugh it over.
but for someone i love, at this difficult point of time... it's very hard for me to swallow the already huge pain and sadness.
my mother is gone. life's not gonna be the same.
so i decided, maybe it's time for me to heal all my wounds, to correct my mistakes, to see what path i wan to take again. So maybe i should stop contacting her, and these are wat i told her mother.
but deep in my heart, i'm silently hoping that, she will eventually miss me more, ask me how am i doing etc.
but i guess i was wrong...
like i say, she nv believe in my love for her at all...
whatever is the case, it's all over le.
Or maybe it's not?
i rem her mother saying, if two are fated, no matter how long or wat happens, they will still be tgt in the end.
my 1st hope has been dashed.
my revived new hope, is just to wait.
i hope she still can rem that, there was once a person called mingwei, her bf, who accompanied her thru some of her major life events, like O Levels, Prom ntie, first job, Poly admission etc; and her, edwiana, as my gf, accompanied thru my life events like NS, ORD, work, driving lessons and test, NTU etc.
haiz. her new bf is her classmate. I've helped her in choosing her poly course; i felt i've created the opportunity for them to meet...
let time prove everything. let it prove my love...
Signing off,
Mr 1Cent...
